Hidup si rakun!^^

yeah.. Happy April Fools~ btw.. unfortunatily.. today have just happened something very nice.. (too nice too tell _ _" hm.. today my hp KENA SITA~~ lalalala.. very nice *applause for my self* hehehe.. today i didn't deposite it and unfortunatily.. my hp was fell down while the econ lessons.. wuah wuah.. *wave* to my hape.. luckily.. my ipod kaga kena sita, klo kena sita.. weleh2.. cry for me argentina ler.. good bye for all my precious stuff, can't live without ipod and hp.. huahuahua.. weirdly, i didn't feel anything, don't care too much about it, but ND "kurzar" keep cheesing me! "dhu Ferna, masa hp ke sita hari Jumat, gimana sms-an?" hahahaa.. very funny D! wanna kick ur head! don't know what i have to write more.. hauhauha.. btw thx Mr. Hendry, the teacher whom took the hp, *bow* sankyu sir! i appreciated a lot with ur decision  to take my hp.. hehehee.. think positively.. with the teacher took my hp, so i can be more concentrate with the lessons.. hm.. hey ~ always think positively with what has just happened ~ ^^V

woah.. today i woke up several time.. first at 5 o'clock then 8 o'clock then 10 o'clock, went to Ahyat to Dimsum, I Siok Lin invited us, bcos she was celebrating her bday party wif her husband, hm.. 1 week more.. pre-national exam is comin`, have to prepare corectly.. dun want to feel disapoint lately.. have to do the best!! always think positively and smile.. coz smile brights our day.. hohoho spirit! spirit! world filled with love

yeah.. first want to pray for the pope, hoping that, we'll get the new pope as good as before~ *pray~pray* second, want to say that.. walauweh.. everyday we have so many test - quiz - etc etc hoh.. tired enough! [- -]* now.. deadline and many deadline of projects are coming~ showing up~~ ah.. this Friday is the deadline for English UN projects!! argh!! don't have any idea.. I haven't finished yet, and - blon dikerjain sama sekali - OMG!!! huhuhu.. tommorrow, will have Bahasa and Bio Quiz, Math's Mrs. Maria, n so on~ shot! now.. i feel sleepy, but i still have to study~ study~ and study~ won't let myself to get a badmark. no way ler.. wish me luck!! *massage my self* hahaha.. wish me luck~ wish  me luck~ *stressed face _ _"* SWT! hohoho.. btw this noon, I found some Quote, and I like it so much.. "Dream in your live, but don't live in your dream~" kewl!

 btw.. need some opinion from u all guys, which one you think it's better? (name):

*Lyra                         *Syn (kepanjangan dr : "Singkat Ya Nga?" LoL

*Aerish (I prefer this one! :D)        *Rhys (itu loh, yang dimakan tiap ari )

* Lyca      * The Folate      *Tilth

thx! *bow*

++ WISH ME LUCK!! ++

yeah.. today.. feel very very very BT~~ duno, why my mood will become very bad, if today is Wednesday, actually isn't a problem bout the day, bout with who i meet. yeah! Today we had.. let say Mrs. M1 and M2, they both are really2 a freaky teacher! Mrs. M1's lessons? I never can enjoy her lessons, whereas.. I keep trying to like and enjoy with her lessons, but every she comes and teaches us.. worst thing will happened. She really like to ceramah "jaw" is it? yeah. jawing~jawing and jawing, keeps teasing us!! makes us feel that we r wrong! we r lazy! we r bad students! if u want to pass the exam, u have to study hard! she thinks that we are very very very stupid! very very snub with the final exam~ hey madam~ u have to know that I care with the lessons and the final exam. why are u keep teasing us? make us feel guilty! huh! ur lessons is really makes my day become very very bad!! make my mood very very bad~ u almost kill me u know? if i can, I'll always absent if at that day i have ur lessons, but I'm not a coward, I'll show u that i can! but plss... stop teasing us~ stop make us feeling guilty~ I don't like to be reined! nobody like to be reined!!! huh! now it's time to stop thinking of u.. u make me crazy.. i better waste my time to think bout important stuff.. then think about u.. and make myself uncomfortable! bye! bye! mrs. M1!!!

woah.. today i cut my hair.. n now.. it becomes very short~ shorter than before.. above ma shoulder, wuah~ wuah~ got so many comments~ btw want to make some reflection for this week.. hm... this week, ga ada pelajaran yang masuk ke otak, this week.. wah parah~ have to adjust it next week, btw next week, pra UAN, tara!! have to study study n study, stop ol for a while.. but..but.. i can't live without i-net!! oh no!! study~ study~ semangat 45!! have to be more patient, my emotion really2 up and down in this week~ walaueh.. have to normalize my emotion~ repot klo emosi naik turun, bisa bikin cape, klo pengen marah, orang2 di sekitar bisa kena~ kasian, really2 sorry to my stuff n so on, yang kena suara tinggi ferna~ *bow* really2 sorry~ hope that will have a better day, btw pray for a Pope~ all the best!

woah.. today feel very tired~ yesterday i slept at 2 am, forgot to wash my face, so.. at 5 am, i woke up and washed it, then.. sleep again till almost 9 o'clock, went to c Yul' house to get Math course n studied math for 2 or 3 hours, wuah.. after that.. I feel very very tired, went back home.. wanted to sleep, but felt too full to sleep, so.. washed my wallet till 5 o'clock, cylced, it's been a long time, I hadn't ride cycle for m.. almost 4 months maybe~ wah lama juga yah~ hehehehe.. tomorrow is sunday and.. 2 days more is Monday~ i love monday! hehe.. many things to do ler.. tommorrow i think I'm lazy enough to go to Cakung or where tommorrow, have to do many thing, now i think i have to sleep~ feel very2 tired~

 have to do:
- study Geography (Quiz)
- bring Conflict notes (citizen)
- make resensi (Bahasa)
- make summary chap 6 (physics)
- math homework (Sr. Eddy)
- make assignment bout PBB (History)
- make religion assignment (went to panti)
- etc etc..

  - have to S U R V I V E ! ! ! -

yeah~ I'm back! after vacum for a week from i-net, now I'm back~ hehe.. then later.. I'll vacum gain, huahuahau.. this Monday will be the 1st day of Pra-UN, for the opening part, we are going to have Bahasa n English test.. we have to learn from grade 7 till 9, awesome~ have to study harder~ recharge my energy so I won't be sleepy~ btw, wuah.. Vigo has so many pic on his blog, cool! I saw lot of pics. duno why, I really like to take and look pics~ If I'm on my lazy mode or when there are nothing to do, I'll open my photos album, I'll look it up one by one, and laugh, hahaha.. now, the things that I want are have my own digi-cam, m.. camcorder too actually :D love to take pic, my own pic :D, my friend's, scenery or even that's just uselles stuff, coret2an on my tab that I drew and many more~ hohoho.. I often waste my time just sit infront my comp, browse fs just to see the pic, huahua... or visit other tabuey too see their album. I do love see pics~ If I look the pic, sometimes I'll remember what had happened at that time~ I think if I have my own cam and camecorder, I'll bring that stuffs then I'll record everything.. huahua.. make some movie; my daily activity. everyday i become old and old and older (ngaku juga) so.. one day~ If i miss my teen-day, I can still memorize it with open what I record. talk about my fave shot. If someone is smilling or laughing~ wuah wuah.. I do love kendiet them! hahaha.. take some weird shot of mine, take the -sky-especially the -cloud-  In the evening, before sunset, after have dinner, I often walk around at the complek~ while I'm walking, I seldom look infront but I often look upside~ and look at the cloud, the cloud shapes was so unique, we can play our imagination~ 2 days ago, I saw the clouds that looked like "hand" then.. I ever looked St. Claus, hohoho.. so nice~ I'll write more next time, now my headache is visiting me~ hoho..

              -world filled with love-

hohohoho.. I think it supposes to be called "break time" not study time.. hehehe.. after studied for a while, now is the time to recharge my energy, nyum..nyum.. eating some Tim-Tam and drink hot tea.. feel so comfy.. feels like heaven 0:p although today I won't be able to anywhere... just try to make myself as comfort as I can.. later I'll go to basket court, and play for a while.. having fun ler.. we have to balance our study and break time, hoh! huehue.. miss my bro, mr.k4rdus.. huehue.. miss the time we've passed, hohoho.. fight together, take some psycho pic, shouting~~ singing together and joget2, hahaha.. woah~ come back soon bro-dol! cook for me, ok! hoho.. have to go back to study~~ never-never give up!! spirit! spirit!

woah.. finally the test has just passed... *wave* bye-bye English~~ Indonesia~~ Math~~ *wave* hehehe... *grin* today i feel very very very very very tired : xhausted mode : today i woke up at 1 a.m. studied math.. till 3 o'clock ( i didn't realized ) I was shocked at that time, "what? 3 o'clock?" pantesan.. yawn melulu.. hauhauhua... this morning, I almost couldn't wake up.. maybe too tired.. setrum otak terus lagi... heuheuhe.. (campur gini bahasa-na? is ok lar.. :p) huahauhau.. oh yeah.. today.. I got 3 hours lessons for Math (for doing the test, actually) then... got break for 30 minutes, when i went to toilet then i saw my face on the mirror, jagile... mata ogud langsung berkantong.. such a pandaism.. @_@ hauhaauhau.. after that.. had 1 hour biology and the last.. wuah unexpectedly.. 6 hours Physics.. feel very very very tired then..  btw.. i think i ate too much chocolate.. so now i become fater.. heheheehe.. chocolate is very very helping me.. coz if i use my brain too much~ headache is comin'.. so i have to eat some chocolate, otherwise chocolate is not helping me.. but i do like chocolate so much n drink tea.. hehehe... tired ~~ have to study soon~ gambatte ne

bintang. bintang itu ada tanpa kita ketahui. bersinar di malam hari dan di dalam hati. ketika kita sedih. bintang itu tetap bersinar. memberi senyum di hati kita. bintang yang menemani di saat senang maupun sedih. tak kenal ruang dan dimensi. terima kasih atas cahayamu...

oah.. today I woke up 4 times.. 1st = 8 o'clock then I slept again. 2nd = 10 o'clock then sleep again.. hehehe.. 3rd = 11 o'clock n sleep again.. the last 12 o'clock.. hehehe then I decided to wake up.. and clean my room.. udah lumayan berantakan, buku2 bertebaran dimana2~ ga betah juga liat berantakan.. so.. buat exercise di pagi hari.. rapi2 kamar dhe.. lagi rajin buat rapi2.. huahuaha.. btw hari ini bangun siang bgt yah.. udah bangun tidur lagi, bangun - tidur - bangun - tidur, rada males sih.. tapi masih harus ngerjain PR n belajar lagi.. (DISCIPLINE!!) 

`bout yesterday

Hm.. yesterday I went to Lippo and met April, Ajes n Agnes.. dalam rangka April ultah, ini kedua kalinya kita pergi bareng loh.. (terharu) tapi sayangna Rossy ga ikut, Rossy ga boleh ikut sih, alhasil kita cuman berempat dhe.. kita janjian jam 11 di sana. udah berama lama ya aku ga ke Lippo? 7 tahun ada kali yah.. bener2 udah lama banget, ga ke Mallnya. dari waktu kerusuhan tahun 98, aku udah ga pernah lagi ke Mallnya. waktu sampai sana sempet bingung2... hehehehe.. bisna dha lama banget ga ke sana. waktu ke sana, mami yang nganter (thx mom!) sampai di sana, karena aku dateng lebih cepet dari mereka, jadi me n mom jalan2 bentar, liat2 tas. hehehe.. cari2 clutch bag. lagi koleksi.. ga tau kenapa yah, kok aku lebih demen clutch bag atau ga ransel di banding tas model lain? ya itulah bedanya orang.. hoho.. they are special coz they r different. waktu udah ketemu mereka, akhirna aku pisah sama mama. mama tour Mall sendiri dhe (sorry mom). waktu ngeliat mereka.. wah sempet kaget! i was surprised!! mereka bertiga cakep2 banget yah.. pake rok semua gitu.. bertiga.. cuman aku sendiri yang pake celana + polo shirt + kerah bajuna aja dinaikin, beda banget sama mereka.. mereka yang girly gitu.. aku yang boyly gitu.. tapi aku pake clutch bag sih.. jadi ketauan cw lah.. hohoho.. abis ketemu, kita langsung ke Mstudio buat foto2.. wah kita merajalela di pagi hari.. hahahah.. foto studiona kita jarah. kita foto2 gitu ampe 29 kali, orang di sanana ampe ngomong pelan2, takut dimarahin bossnya kali yah. "foto 29 kali?" gile bener! banyak customer lain kan.. hehehe.. karena cuman aku yang pake celana, akhirna.. ogud dinobatkan sebagai cowok kece 2005 jadi cowok yang paling kece.. wuah.. terharu (makasih..makasih..) :p karena pada pake rok, jadi gaya yang aneh2, harus saya lakoni.. tapi enak juga, bergaya cooll.. hohoho.. (wekz!) cowok keren dan dikelilingin 3 cw2 cantiQue nan imoet2.. oh yeah, sebelum foto2 gitu.. kita pegi ke toko baju bentar. dha gitu aku ada coba rok gitu.. wuah.. parah pendek banget!!! di atas dengkul x_x sebelumna waktu double celana sih.. ogud oke2 aja, cuman waktu disuruh lepas celana.. oh no!!! pendek banget, "mbak~mbak, pendek banget!! sorry yah.. makasih" huahauhauahua.. *kaburr!* sih Ajes, akhirna beli tank-top + baju luaran n sih April ga jadi beli rok nieh.. masa waktu disuruh coba, dy udah masuk, tiba2 keluar udah pake baju biasa lagi. "loh kok dicoba?" april: "udah" yang lain.. "tapi kan kita belon liat!!!" hehehehe.. sempet dipaksa masuk lagi.. tapi ga jadi dhe.. hihihi.. klo kita udah ketemu emang kita jadi ganas semua.. maklum maklum.. :D abis belanja, foto2, akhirna.. kita makan juga di Platinum.. suer dhe.. aku udah laper buanget buanget buanget buanget dan buanget.. udah laper dari sebelum foto2, dan akhirna..waktu di Platinum udah direncanakan untuk "mau nambah ah.." dengan tampang polos "pril, klo g masih laper, boleh tambah kan?" april "boleh kok" hahahhaa.. sambil nunggu makanan-na keluar.. kita foto2 lagi pake hp, maniak foto semua.. susah dhe.. hohohoho.. oh yeah.. di minuman aku, April dan Agnes kan ada Cherry na.. dha gitu, aku puna cherry tuh udah ke ambil, bis itu sih April minta diambilin n udah ke ambil juga... m.. hehehe.. waktu sih Agnes nyodorin minuman dy, aku pikir dy suruh aku minum minuman dy lagi.. dengan polosnya, aku ambil sedotan aku udah gitu aku minum minuman dy.. hahahahahahah *ngakak* dhu!! dha gitu sih Agnes bilang "fer, ambilin cheeryy gw" ahahahaha... spontan semua ketawa.. dhu malu2in banget.. hahahah.. untung udah kenal lama.. *ngakak sendiri!!!* hahahahahaha... rencana mau nambah pun batal.. bisna setelah makan, ternyata KENYANG sekale.. daku.. semua kekenyangan juga.. hahahaha.. klo aku kayana sanking laper jadi sekal makan langsung kenyang, sih Agnes katanya sampai susah jalan.. dasar tuh anak!! hahahaha.. bis makan2, kita keliling2 lagi dhe.. sih Ajes mao cari sepatu, tapi sebelumna kita ke Socks gallery dulu.. eke mo cari kaos kaki.. cuman ga ade, ya sutra.. jalan2 lagi.. Ajes cari sepatu, April juga mau cari clutch bag n blush on.. oh iye, sebelumna kita sempet ke I.D Girl dan cari clutch bag juga kan, waktu itu aku sempet liat kaya clutch bag gitu, waktu aku ama April liat.. kan bahan lembek.. aku bilang "loh, kok kaya kotak pensil?" hahaha.. sih April juga bilang "iya, baru mau bilang itu kotak pensil" :p maren waktu nyari2 barang, akhirna aku beli kotak kacamata dhe.. woah.. very chipp. murah sekale.. jadi pengen beli lage.. :p diantara kita berlima (aku, Rossy, Ajes, April n Agnes) yang paling anti make up emang aku ama Rossy, sih Ajes, April n Agnes pakarna make up, waktu foto aje, mereka pake blush on dkk.. tapi ga menor, aku aja baru sadar waktu aku bener2 liat muka mereka.... waktu lagi pada nyari alat2 make up gitu, sih Agnes bilang "sih Ferna mah ga usah ditanyain, dy mana mau, nanti nutupin pori2" hahaha.. gmana kaga, muka udah jerawatan gini.. pake make up apa kaga tambah kacau? haiz.. waktu maren foto2 keliatan lagi jerawatnya.. _ _" tapi untuk nyenengin diri sendiri, hahaha.. aku bilang "biasa.. cowok kece baru keliatan jantan kalau ada jerawatnya.. " hahhahaa.. gelo agh.. wah kapan lagi yah bisa jalan2 bareng mereka lagi.. waktu si Agnes ultah nih.. moga2 nanti waktu SMU kita bisa sekelas semua.. tuh kelas bisa pecah kale.. hohohoh... udah waktu konsen buat UN. APRIL!! AJES!! AGNES!! kapan-kapan!! kita jalan2 lagi yah!! Rossy juga!! ok! ok! oK! hohoho.. love you guys

HoHo... this is the one of the pic that we took at Lippo (24.04.05), btw we were inside the cupboard loh... kita jarah barang2 yang ada di dalam, semua diungsiin, (cuman ada dasi doank sih) :p dan satu lagi.. I were inside the trolly.. weleh2.. everyone were wearing skirt, excapt me.. so.. I were be the victim to sit inside the trolly.. heuheuhe.. but it's ok coz its fun so far.. :D btw i got one good news today... my mom said that, my bro'll be back to Jkt soon.. horeee horeee... kk!!! welcome hoh! let's FIGTH! :D ^^v

dhu.. feel lil tired, but duno why, I can't sleep... btw today was so fun!! hohoho.. today is the dateline for all our projects, n for whom haven't yet. they have to submit it today.. if they submit it on Monday, the teacher will minus 2 points ( _ _" OMG what the precious score!) can't u imagine, if u got 6 and u submit it on Monday, the teacher will minus 2 points.. and it'll become 4 ? oh no.. luckily, I have finished all my projects... oh yeah.. today i was shocked with my friend..most of them, slept at 3 o'clock to finish their projects.. pasti teler.. maren aja, aku udah bobo dha gitu jam 3 bangun, tidur lagi, pagi2 aja teler.. apalagi yang kerja nonstop? *pijit2 mereka* hauhauhau.. this Monday.. we will have National Exam (practice)... I hope I can get a good mark for all the lessons. (Amen!)

as ussual.. this Thursday, on Chinese lesson, I cried. I think I often cry on that lesson.. I cried coz I got 9 for my oral test.. x_x it's out of my control.. my tears were dropped naturally.. tapi kayana waktu ogud nangis, semua udah biasa.. karena begitu, tiap kali oral test.. I often cry.. (cengeng banget yah!) cuman... feel lil not fair.. walaupun aku anak yang selebor kiri~kanan, cuman waktu test.. i feel nerveous.. lil bit hard to speak out.. alhasil I got 9..
on break time, I went to meet lause, coz lause left his stuff..  ternyata dy lagi ngajar SMIP 1. waktu itu.. aku jadi ulang oral test, dan jadina 9,5 but i want more.. kalau aja boleh ngomong di depan lause doank, 12 text aku jabanin semua... to get full score.. just try to be calm next time.. and wish me luck for this monday, coz I have English Presentation and i have to present it infront of my friend ( O... ) stay calm~~ stay calm.. and on Tuesday, I'll have Music Exam, I have to sing infront of grade 7-9 students.. (o.. feel so nerveous!!!) but I have to try my best!!! to get a good mark!! wish me luck!

[ Dreams in your life but don't live in your dreams ]