Entries for June, 2006

June 2nd, 2006

calamity

I am always doing that which I cannot do, in order that I may learn how to do it.
 
Fifty percent of the battle ends when you make up your mind
 
 If you don't make mistakes, you aren't really trying
 
I've just read lepon's blog. dan sekarang pikiran ini tiba2 terlintas begitu aja, ditambah lagi sms dari Cynthia. Selain Yogya, akhirnya Papua dan Sumbar kena, ada yang bilang bakal ada 3 gempa lagi di daerah istimewa, Aceh, Yogya (again? we'll never know), dan Jakarta, dan katanya di Jakarta bakal yang paling parah. Ga abis pikir yah, Indonesia dapet serangan bertubi2, selain Tsunami waktu itu yang belum selesai reconstruction-na, sekarang gilirah Yogya. Jadi inget waktu ke Yogya, tempatnya enak, dimana gw live-in di perkampungan, deket gunung. gmana ya kabar bapak-ibu-nya, are they ok? udara deket pegunungan bener2 enak, malem di marioboro, nginep di apt sejahtera, empet2an, sampe kebuat puisi nan sakti, buatan gw, rossy n agnes. haha.. bencan apa lagi yang bakal dateng? belum cukupkah? mungkin itu udah rencana Tuhan, dmana Tuhan memberi kita cobaan, supaya kita bisa membuka mata, dengan apa yang telah kita lakukan. aku percaya, di setiap percobaan yang diberiNya, pasti ada nilai ataupun pesan positif sendiri yang ingin di sampaikanNya. mungkin terasa lelah, korban berjatuhan, ga sedikit nyawa2 yang ninggalin kita. sanak sodara guru2 dari skul aku juga ada yang jadi korba. sedih, tapi apa caranya hanya untuk sedih? pengen rasanya ikut ke Yogya, wonder mom allowed me to go there, tapi mom udah bilang ga boleh. kalau katanya bakal ada earthquake atau bencana lain, jadi rada berat buat ninggalin jkt, berat ninggalin keluarga. God, i just can pray to You. There's nothing I can do beside I put my life on You. I know and believe, every problems You give to us is for our goodess. ttg final exam, tadi na pengen cerita, tapi jadi rada ilang. haha.. tQ tabuey~
 
oh noo.. it's 8 o'clock, and i've just had bis supper.. oh noo.. FATTY-me!  
Currently listening to: Michael Bubble - Quando, Quando, Quando~
Currently feeling: prihatin
Posted by r4kun at 01:21 PM | 2 toss..

June 4th, 2006

:)

Happiness doesn't depend on what we have, but it does depend on how we feel toward what we have. We can be happy with little and miserable with much.
 
Hohohoho.. happy Sunday, everyone *sounds hyper* hahaz.. not really, just try to be more energetic, so i can burn my fat, cause i ate too much this afternoon :D from Church, went to Bakmie GM, ate Bakmie, 15 pangsits, and for the dessert, i had kue ape, hahahaha.. *so full man!* oh yeah, yesterday, finally i met c Novi lohh.. hauhauhau.. she's cute and an energetic gurl~ we played basket for a while, well, i think it didn't count as played basket, cause we just shot2 lah yahh.. hahaz.. so excited to know that i'll go to melb *although i still don't know, will i get the ticket, hahaz* but i believe, everything will be okay.. i'll get the ticket, *lolz* C Itin.. *pull2* hihi.. oh yahh.. for everyone.. whom will get the final exam, jia yo!! gambatte!! we CAN do it! hohoho.. tomorrow i'll have physics and sosio exam, i can't study before the sun disepear.. what a bad habbit. _ _" i have to do my best! GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!
Currently listening to: can't buy me love - michael buble
Currently feeling: full~
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June 6th, 2006

my stressfullness

"How committed are you? There is a remarkable difference between a commitment of 99% and 100%."
 
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves strong. The amount of effort is the same."
 
I'm so stressed by the exam today... i couldn't do the chemistry, at all.. i have no idea with chemistry, why do i can't do the test? every time i got the paper, suddenly i'm -blank- i can do nothing. the qs are consist of 40 multiple choices and 5 essays, from 15 multiple choices, i just can do 7, and for the essays, i just can do the last one.. aggghhh!!! i'm so freak, aghhh.. after the class, i called my bro and i cried.. T_______T I'm so dissapointed with myself, i cried about 20 minutes.. thx for Gbonk, lending me his shoulder, and thx for the others, who try to cheer me up.. gitta, marga, edwin, gbonk.. huaaahhh.. i feel really better now.. i will try to catch up for the BIO. and the test will be tomorrow.. *asking myself "why do you still online?" hahaz.. i just want to write my stressness.. and something funny happened this afternoon. it's a new record for me.. hehehe.. for the first time i used bajaj by myself, it's because my lovely maid.. *grrr* when i called home, i told my maid to tell mom, so she could pick me up at the superindo, cause i had something to buy, butt... my lovely maid.. didn't tell my mom that i was at superindo, so.. i waited for approx 15 minutes at the superindo.. waiting for my mom.. i called my maid, 3 times, asking "where's mom? did you tell mom that i'm at superindo?" my maid "yes" and for the last.. i called home back.. and asked my maid, once again then.. my maid just realized.. "heh? superindo" OMG!!!! agghhh.. then i decided to use bajaj, so i could go to the pik. on the way to the pik, i saw mom's car passing me.. agghhh.. i was stressed out.. hahaha.. i almost walked back to superindo.. luckily i din't do that.. i just waited there, till mom turned back and picked me.. btw there's a silly things too.. i'm kinda embarased.. cause i didn't bring my purse and.. i supposed to pay the tukang bajaj for 5k, but i just have 4,5k. hahahz.. so embarassing, i don't want to use bajaj, anymore!!!
Currently listening to: can't buy me love - michael buble
Currently feeling: spirit!
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June 8th, 2006

i'm dead!

Treat people as if they were what they ought to be, and you help them to become what they are capable of being.
 
yeahh.. i'm dead! i can't do the bahasa exam well today, and for the geography.. aghh.. forget it! i just can do 26 from 60 questions, oohhh.. how clever i am. and because of this, i ate a lot today.. i ate fries, curry what lah.. then, i ate butter cookies, and now.. i'm enjoying my green tea.. what a wonderfull day.. i don't know what will my reportbook be.. increase? *hahaz* decrease? *yehh.. we'll see* i'm dead dead dead dead.. what mom/dad/bro say, if they see my report book? agghhh!! btw 2 more exams to go.. well tomorrow is the last day! yeahh.. yeahh.. *lemas* hahaz.. i'm sleepy now.. i want to sleep!! aghh.. i'm tired with the examination! !@#$%^&*( *gerrr* hahaz.. aghhh aghh aghh.. *stressed gurl!* lolz, btw, Mr(s) GIORBY!!! HAPPY BUFDAEEEEE BEBIH!!!! I LAP YOU!! TILL YOU CLEAN!!! hahahahahaz..
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June 9th, 2006

sounds of freedom

The problem in my life and other people's lives is not the absence of knowing what to do, but the absence of doing it.
 
have you heard "soud of music" before? yeah.. i'm sure you have it. hehe.. cause that's the name of movie right, but for now.. i put "sounds of freedom" as my tittle, a little modification for the tittle (what a pathetic intro, is this) hehe... well, finally~ I AM FREE!!! yeahh~ hahaz.. today is the last day.. and i'm satisfied enough with what i've done today.. i just can do the test well, today.. hehe.. not like another tests before, i just coubt for 4/5 questions from 50.. *fyuh* and for the essay, i just doubt for the number one.. yipiii.. no more study till next month! *hihi* *syalalalalala~* this Monday, i still have to go to school, but not to study, cause i'll just live in at the "panti asuhan" (forget the english) i hope everything will be fine.. hehe.. and now, is the time to reduce the fat.. eng ing eng.. and have a proper sleep cycle.. cause, while the examination, i always used to sleep at 3 pm, woke up at noon and study till midnite, and overslept and woke up at 3 am.. what a bad sleep cycle i have _ _" i still have mm.. almost a week, to lose my weight,, wish me luck wish me luck.. melb, here i come.. i wish when i go there, i can be thinner.. hahaz.. i love winter~
 
good luck for everyone, who are faced with the exam! jia yo~ 
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June 10th, 2006

@ office

It is the `follow through' that makes the great difference between ultimate success and failure, because it is so easy to stop.
 
*- _ -* I feel sleepy noww.. @ office, and waiting for my brotha.. feel damn bored now. nothing to do, and this kuya i-net connection is so pissed me off... can you imagine, i just can open 1 window? feels like at the warnet, i guess.. so sleepy.. btw this morning, i almost being left by my brotha.. hehe.. my bro left at 8 and i'd just waken up at 7.30 *jegerrrr*
oh yeahhh.. still remember, bout my plan? my plan to lose my weight? hahaz... i have no idea, why nowadays, at nite.. i always hungry? last nite.. before i slept, i ate cheese biscuits and ate papaya.. alamak janng... fatty me agghh.. well, i don't know what i've to talk now.. jia nee..
 
*dolar ausieee.. turun lah kaawww* 
 
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June 16th, 2006

bored

The responsibility for both present and future is in our own hands. If we live right today, then tomorrow has to be right
 
 Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful.
 
When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be
 
Your only limitations are those you set up in your mind, or permit others to set up for you.
 
If my mind can conceive it, and my heart can believe it, I know I can achieve it.
 
We need a renaissance of wonder. We need to renew, in our hearts and in our souls, the deathless dream, the eternal poetry, the perennial sense that life is miracle and magic.
 
I'm damn bored right now.. very very very very and extra extra extra bored. i always hate this kind of holiday.. well, in fact i still have something to do.. as fixing the cash book.. lived at the panti asuhan was great.. but now.. i have this confusing job to do. tomorrow i've to give the report-cash to my hadmaster.. - _ -"
 
i feel lil sick now.. after ate my maid's toxic fish.. my stomach keep rolling now.. huhuhuhu.. moreover tomorrow, i gonna take my report book. i'm a lil afraid of it. what would it be.. will it be good or bad? huhuhuh.. i have no idea, if my report book decrease.. i've told brother, is it okay, if my result decrease, he said, it's okay, well.. i feel lil relieve.. but not at all.. i'm sick with this situation, well, somebody, if you need my help, please tell me.. you want me to acompany you, walk around the mall, i'll follow you.. please gi'me some job.. huhuhu.. i prefer go to school now.. i love school, but i hate routine.. and i like holiday but i need something to do~ 
Currently feeling: sick of the toxic fish
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ouchy!

You have to decide what your highest priorities are and have the courage -- pleasantly, smilingly, nonapologetically -- to say 'no' to other things. And the way you do that is by having a bigger 'yes' burning inside.
 
dhoo... how stupid i am.. i just kicked the chair, now my toe so hurt! neway, i just want to say "get well soon" my beloved brotha.. he has fever now.. and i hope, tomorrow, he'll be okay, coz tomorrow i'll get my report book, i hope the result won't go bad.. i just hope, it just static, no up or down action *amen* btw, i'm still confuse with my cash-book, damn, i forget, where did i put the other bills, or, there's no more left bills to count.. aih aih.. hope everything going right! amen! amen! i miss 'm 
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June 18th, 2006

i wish~

When I look back on all these worries, I remember the story of the old man who said on his deathbed that he had had a lot of trouble in his life, most of which had never happened.
 
first of all, i wanna say "HAPPY BUFDAE" dear my mommy, well, it's yesterday, but i just want to write it here.. hehehe.. and finally, yesterday, i got my report book. i'm not satisfied at all! at all! i'm kinda regret about the result, i wish i could make it better, so i can be the 3rd rank *hix*
 
i'm so dissapointed with my computer result, i got decrease from 9 to 8, maybe i'm an arrogant person, but sometimes, i prefer to do my task alone, like this, me and my friend,we have 2 projects, i've done 1 project alone, and my friend just leha2, and she submitted the 2nd project, just before the dateline, whereas, she had moreeeeeee time to do it, but she didn't do it. well, it had passed, but i think it's not fair, i really wish, i my comp result didn't decreae, so, at least i could be he 3rd rank. *sigh*
 
the more i remember bout the result, the more i feel dissapointed. huhuhuhuhu.... i wish i wish i wish, yah.. i realized, with leha2 and without study, i won't get a very good mark, but.. okay, forget it. i have to learn how to satisfy with the reality.
 
beside my dissapointment, finally, i just get 1 of my goals, praise to God for everything. start from this new class, i won't faced by the social-lessons again. i passed and take the science class, it's the time for me to more serious with my education. maybe it will be hard, but i'm sure i'll regret if i take the social class. cause, when i saw the book-list... i was shocked, social = anthropoly, sosiology, history, the better one, geography.. hahaz.. i'm not really good with memorizing, hehe.. too lazy..
 
i'll chase my next goal, and i believe i'll get it. and so you all do! jia yo!
 
almost forget, yesterday is Fifi's bufdae, i'm so sorry that i couldn't go there.. i really don't meant it..  
Currently listening to: Michael Bubble - Quando, Quando, Quando~
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June 19th, 2006

holiday

Happiness is that state of consciousness which proceeds from the achievement of one's values
 
good afternoon, i don't know what i've to write just wanna say.. finally i start my holiday, officially~ hehehe..
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June 20th, 2006

her...

Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit at home and think about it. Go out and get busy. 
 
*******
Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.
 
hohoho... this morning, i was soo lazy, i woke up lately today, even i heard my bro, went down, but i couldn't move my body, i just wanted to sleep.. sleep till noon, hahaz... and finally, i woke at.. aprrox 9, (i guess). woke up, took a bath, and "ibu2 arisan" were comin`. they came to celebrate mom and i fe2's bufdae. we had shabu2 for lunch, i ate lots of vegies, cause i dun really like meatballs, hehe..
 
after had my lunch, me and wydz, went to mm. guess what, i saw cien2, haha.. he was talking on the phone, and he didn't even realized that i was beside him. gile.. telpon serius bener.. hahaz.. well, after that, (cien2 still didn't realize) huahua.. me and wydz went to wendys, OMG, wydz is a very skinny gurl, that eat a lot.. i have no idea, why she keeps skinny, even she eats a lottt.. (seriously, she eats a lot, but she can't be fat).. we ate 1 mid and 1 biggie french fries, then baked potato chese n brocoli, then.. we had frosty for bonus.. *yiippiii* (thx, sir) hehe.. we waited the baked potato for a long time, till i asked him, then he gave me the frosty as apologize, hahaz..
 
wendys = passed, went to TimeZone.. hahaz.. i miss playing timezone, and i think i seem as villagers, cause, we tried to get the ticket so we can change the ticket for handphone chain.. aghh.. (gantungan hp-red) hehe.. we are so lucky today, cause when i want to re-insert the saldo, i paid 5k, and i got 25k, weiiwww... arigatouuuu.. after played all day long.. finally, we went home, before that.. i was forget to buy mom's bread.. hueehhh... so scaryy.. so i asked i fe2, to pick us at carefour.. if not.. mom will fried me.. hahaz.. went home late, without bread.. *joking*
 
went home, got shabu2 again as my dinner.. i ate a lot.. cause, i think i would go to hospital by walking, so i'm not afraid with eating a lot.. yahh.. count as, i will waste my energy to walk rite.. ehh.. on the way out from the gate, i saw my bro's car. *damn!* so, he told us that he wanted to pick us.. agghhh.. *ga jadi bakar lemak!, damn!* hahaz.. after that.. went to hospital, had some prob with the atm, and went back home.. i dun think i want write bout the prob.. cause it's just makes me on nerve.. *fuuuuhhhh*
 
about my friend... 
wydz hahaz.. my holiday / weekend partner.. she's my bangkotan friend.. we've known each other since we were playground.. hahahah.. we always hang out together on weekend or holiday, can you imagine, i waste a week hang out with her last year, before i went to spore.. hahaha.. gile.. everyday we saw each other, till we eneg2.. hahaha.. joking~ hope, we'll have everlasting friendship
Currently listening to: Rod Stewart
Currently feeling: jazzy
Posted by r4kun at 03:26 PM | give me five!

June 21st, 2006

so handsome agh~ :p

If there are a hundred steps
In thy path to success
And ye have not reached it
In ninety-nine of them
Do not conclude
That the journey is a failure.
 
wew.. thx God, for calming me down this morning 
well, I've just watched the olsen twin's movie, winning london and new york minute. i don't know i always wish that i could have a twins, hahaz.. well, the point bout the movie is.. there's always handsome guy aghh.. jadi senang nonton-na.. *hahaz...* well, bout my activity today..
 
woke up, almost 10 o'clock, and i was so stupid, i was wondering "eehh.. where 'life & style' show?" and.. i was about looking at the newspaper, wonder when the schedule.. "jam 10 kok" and.. in fact, it was 11 o'clock.. alamak jangg.. so stupid, agh..
 
then.. after ate and so on, i started to clean and packed my old books, in the midle of cleaning, mm.. almost finished deh.. my mom asked me whether i wanted to go to wydz house or not, cause mom wanted to take fishballs, then.. i just left it, and till now, my bedroom, is so messy, full of papers, I'm gonna finish it tomorrow, I promise to myself, or later, before i go to bed, I'll clean it.. hehe.. I'm so into Rod Stewart's songs now.. so jazzy and relaxing..
 
5 days more, I'm leaving jkt.. lil bit excited, cause.. i can bite c itin.. hahaha.. joking cc :D oz, here i come.. winter~ love ya!
Currently listening to: Rod Stewart
Currently feeling: :)
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June 22nd, 2006

boys?!?!

hohohoho... dhoo.. after watching winning london.. now i'm kinda crazy bout the lord browning, a.k.a Jesse Spencer... ulalalaaa... so hansome aghh~ :p
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June 23rd, 2006

AIDA

Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You
 
eng ing eng... announcment.. today, St. Laurensia High School proudly present the drama musical, AIDA.. will be held on Laurensia school, from 6.30 pm till end, and it's for free...
 
huahuahua.. promosi promosi, well, i have nothing to say for now, hehee.. so see ya later
 
have a nice day~ 
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June 24th, 2006

packing

Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend
 
dhooo... last nite, i went home approx 9, and still have Ho-Fan for my dinner.. huehh.. fattyyyyy.... well, and today i woke up at 10.30 huahauhau...
 
dhoo.. my ear! *_ _"* daddy's picture suddenly fell down.. and it made a huge shocking voice. darn! my ear _ _"
 
oh yeah.. just want to write bout the show last nite, overall, the show was okay, me as the express mc, without preparation *huhh* neway, giorby was damn cool last nite, eh wait wait, his voice i mean.. with his act, his "melas" eyes.. damn, if i could, i would have to go infront of him, and punched his face.. hahaha.. melas banget tuh tampang.. _ _"
 
hahaha.. bout the other characters..they both have a fantastic voice! my gosh... glory, you have a such whitney houston-ess voice abis, but unfortunatelly, yesterday will be our last meeting, cause she gonna move from loren.. yahh.. no more whitney houston dehh.. *poor!* well.. no more idea to write.. 
Posted by r4kun at 09:49 AM | give me five!

wish me luck!

The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in
 
good evening tabuey,
you know what i'm doin` now? OMG, i can't believe, I'm googling Jesse Spencer's what so ever that... hahaha...  and you know what.. we born on the same day.. yah.. not in the same year seh.. he was born at 1979, wew.. unexpected men.. and he's not the real British, but he's australian.. *what a happy me* and the most important think is.. he leaves at melbourne.. *i can hear the angel's sing* hahaz.. jkjkjkjk.. well, i bet Rossy will geleng2, if she sees my blog now.. she's kinda confused when i talked about the Spencer.. haha.. she said "ferna ga pernah segila ini" well, i think, start from now.. i wont be crazy bout this boy anymore.. hahaha.. ini kayana gara2 lagi konslet doank kok :p "i just don't know.. what i'm doin`(googling his pic?!?! i prefer he in his short cut hair.. aghhh)" *dudud agghh*
 
oh yeah.. i haven't finished packing, huu.. so lazy.. this is my 2nd trip i go alone.. and i hope everything will be allrite, i just want to be an independent gurl.. but i'm kinda afraid now, whether will i just disturb my friend.. :|
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June 25th, 2006

@ Melb



well, finally i'm arrived here... hohoho... in this trip, in almost every stop, i become somebody child.. can you imagine, at the indo rpot, i sat next grandama grandpa and i seem like there grandaughter, then, in the aeroplane, i sat next bapak2, yah.. seem as i'm her daughter too.. then, otw from sg to melb, i sat with grandma n grandpa too.. btw.. i want to write about my freaky dream, last nite.. hehehe..

last nite, i dreamt bout Giorby n Gitta n Ms. Cynthia... we were at the class, having our national exam, and bahasa as the subject... well, in my dream, i was sat with Gitta (1 table) and Giorby was on my right, gw ngerjain testna gitu kaya yang teler2 gitu.. ga konsen, dah gitu sih Gitta yang stress, sampe akhirna dy bawa bombox, and you know what? she turned clasic song... wewww.. gw yang ampe bingung, satu kelas deggg... dah gitu sih Giorby yang kaya kasih gw contekan gitu.. pas mo ambil contekan, gw jatok dan bangun.. it's such a freaky dream... moreover, i dreamt bout giorby twice, 1st, i dreamt bout his weight.. mimpi apaan lagi.. mimpiin orang 45 kg.. *jegerr* 

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