Hidup si rakun!^^

Believe you can do it. Believing something can be done puts your mind to work for you and helps you find ways to do it.

If you can't, you must. If you must, you can.

It matters not what a person is born, but who they choose to be

about today.
this morning, during physics lessons, as usuall we arrange our sit into a big group. we chatted a lot and suddenly stephen said "ferna, ratu jerawat" well. it's a bit painfull, i feel a bit sensitive with "pimples" word, moreover on the way to pick up point, daddy said "you should look after your face, fer. see, your face, those scar, nanti bopeng". pimples so depressing, i keep trying not to think too much about the pimples, but i don't know, why people around me always discuss about my pimples? *hx* when i heard what stephen said, it feels something scratch my hearth. guys, don't you think, even masculin girl, they have feeling? noone admire or happy to have pimples on their face (i bet)

2nd thing that annoys me.
don't ever talk about weight infront of me. i keep gain weight, and for this last 3 months, i have gained 6 kgs. before last saturday, i bet i had lost some weight, but i ruined all by ate cheesecake at starbucks, drank java chococip, creamy chocochip and for the closing (a.k.a dessert) i had old chang kee.

feel a bit stupid about this, why should i care about those too physically stuff? well, i just miss my previous skin (a.k.a face) then i just feel a bit uncomfy with those fat around my body, enough with this too physically stuff, i should be more patient with those thing.

btw, Kon!!!! you scratched my ipod!! hayaahhh..

Enough. I really want to meet him (directly-or undirectly), i want make all in my mind clear, i really want to know what he feels, what he wants, i don't want to live under his shadow. I'm sick of him!

" Life is an adventure to be lived, not a problem to be solved " "I've missed over 9,000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times I've been trusted to take the game-winning shot...and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed." "You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment. Fools stand on their island of opportunities and look toward another land. There is no other land; there is no other life but this." "Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world. "There are two kinds of failures: Those who thought and never did, and those who did and never thought." "You will never change your life until you change something you do daily." "The grass is not, in fact, always greener on the other side of the fence. Fences have nothing to do with it. The grass is greenest where it is watered. When crossing over fences, carry water with you and tend the grass wherever you may be." today, woke up at 7 something, then went to hospital (as usuall), had lowback physioteraphy, well, my lowback pain is getting worst. it's very very very painfull >_<. i met Om Ridwan and her daughter there, Om Ridwan's wife is in the hospital now, but he said, she's leaving hospital soon. hope she will get well soon. from hospital, went to math tuition, thx to April for the help. hoho, without her, i don't know what i gonna be. :D well, after math tuition, went to PIM. i hate PIM so much it's so far from my house and i had traffic jam, i started 'menjamur' in the car, i hate sitting too long in the car, arrived PIM, met Neng, Mcky, Jean, Jqem, and Fina, i was just about 45 minutes there and i had to go to Rossy's house, cause we were having rossy's bufdae party there. when we arrived there, noone had arrived there, beside April and Ajes, hohoho... Rossy was about shocked when she met me, cause, the day before i told her that i couldn't come, i was just lying, just wanna make some surprise. the time i arrived (i went there with Agnes) met Mochi infront of the house. went to Rossy's bedroom, she looks soooo beautyfull a.k.a pretty today. she looks good wearing skirt. had some crazy chit chat as talking about OPA and the brem brem Harley. hahahahaz... i bet you understand what i'm writting about Ros *wink* Rossy's bufdae party was exciting overall, happy to gather together, will miss those time.. huuu.. hope Rossy likes the presence, well, i still prefer the webcam, but nothing to say about the shinkasen. gtg now, watching Devil wears Prada, hohoho.. oh yeah, Edmond yesterday, had left to Shanghai already, take care there.

today, woke up at 11 but i had waken up first for a while at 6. mom is not at home and so daddy is. so i'm just with brotha, had naspad for my lunch-dinner, eeer.. better go now than i write something useless, hehe..

"Where you are headed is more important than how fast you are going. Rather than always focusing on what's urgent, learn to focus on what is really important."

  "If you become a learner you will encounter the greatest teachers."

i've never expected that my brother could be a monster. i'm so sad and i'm so scared of him now. well, this is the story about him. this morning, daddy wasn't at home, so he had to carry me to the bus pick up point. as usuall i wake up at 5 something, at maybe 5.45, he came out from his room and told me to hurry, i was "ehhh.. it's just 5.45" then.. when i was taking bath, suddenly he ephoned me, asked me what i was doing at that time and told me to hurry.. when i had just finished taking bath, and i was using my medicine, suddenly he came to my room, shouted at me, and banged the door. it's so shocking, i was shocked, and i feel a bit scared if i have to be around him. beacuse of my shocked-ness, i cried, i couldn't stop crying... cause i was in my fear.. i can't be shouted.. moreover in the morning. even i'm not the people who be shouted, if i see people are shouted by someone.. i feel scared too.. so sorry brother.. i don't meant to make the distance, but i'm still shocked, and i'm a bit scared to be around you. i don't blame you, maybe you did that cause you care of me, you don't want me to be lefted by the bus. arigatou bro.. and pips pls don't mention anything but my brotha, he's not a bad guy, but maybe he has a bit bad tampered, and this morning he had to wake up early, whereas usually he can wake up at 7. i don't want to hear bout "brother" or anything bout him, don't ask me about him. cause everytime i remember him, i start feel scared and i want to cry. please don't shout at me T_T

"Our very business in life is not to get ahead of others... but to get ahead of ourselves." finally mom's home.. so happy.. miss her so much, miss mom's cook... huuu.. btw, i've just watched "the restaurant rules", kaya orang lomba ngelolah resto gitu.. while i wathed, i realised that being chef is not as easy as i thought before, i swear! i've felt it before too. those chef have to serve all the thing as fast as they can, if they made any mistake, like overcooked, burned it or anything else, they have to re-cook it.. my gosh, watching that movie makes me a bit stress, hahaz.. well.. watching my lil bride now. so i won't write too much even.. i have something to write, but nvm lar.. hahz..

well well well... today we had kind of farewell party at puri mall.. this thursday will be the last day for us to be taught by ms. santi, she's leaving laurensia.. huuu.. so sad... we took a lot of pics, approx 40 i guess, those pictures are still in my cam, i haven't transfered it to my comp, but soon, i'll transfer it..btw today is Edwin's bufdae, we "kind of" celebrating his bufdae.. and livi's too, we bought small piece of cake for them, and they had to blow the candy, and as usuall we took more pictures. i'll miss those thingss.. huu.. btw Ros.. if you read this, you have to know that before i met with april at puri, april was with KUN!!! wewww... hahahahhaz... unfortunately i couldn't take their picture.. klo ga kan seru.. ya ga Ross? *hihi*

about my weighing, I CAN'T STOP SNACKING! ___ ___" help meee!!!

Today bufdae's :
HaPpY BufDaE : Edmond!!!! k Ray!! Edwin!! Alfons!!! weww.. so many pip aghh.. wishing you all the besttt!!! : )

hohoho... just went back from PS, and i'm planning to write about last nite. well, last nite, is k rem's bufdae, he held kind of party at poke sushi, we went there lately, approx 8, i went there with my bro, k chandra and k andy, why did we late? cause we went to plangi first, cause we hadn't bought anything for k rem, we walked around and finally we found "chicken". it's quite cute (offcoz, cause i found it :p) hahaz, joke. we were in a hurry, so we decided to buy that chicken. when we arrived at poke sushi, i was a bit shocked, cause, wow.. so many people was there. met a lot new people, and i found other twinsy, huahauhauhau.. i think that's all about last nite (sorry for this dull story, hehe) hmm.. bout this morning, went to yum-cha.. weww.. we ate a lot lohh.. lebih banyak daripada waktu ada papa lagi.. hahaz.. i think that's all for now..

(this blog, become more boring by each day.. aih aih.. _ _" it's because of my activity or the way i write yah? maafkan atas inggris ku yang pas2an yahhh.. hahaz ) 

just wanna add some story about what i've seen this morning, hehehe.. before went to yum-cha, i had watched Oprah show.. it's about badai katrina at us and the valounterss.. oprah gave some gifts fro the hero.. and it makes me so mupengg.. ajagilee.. bisa kah kau bayangkan? blackberry for you all guys.. sonny vaio, burberry coat, cashmir coat, boots, oh my gosshhh.. brownies, croisant, and many more.. that's all makes me so mupeng, i swear! hahaz.. but i guess, for all heroes, they deserved to get all of the gift, they sacrificed their life, their time for helping each other.. so touching.. i wish i could be the one of the valounters one day.. and i wish i have my own sonny vaio.. hahaz

i just watched click! movie this afternoon, the story was quite bored in the beginning, but at the end.. huhhh.. the story so sad.. moreover when he knew his dad had died. agghh.. i cried while watching that movie. T____T *hxhxhxhxhxhx, sroottt* even the movie is not really good, well i rate 7/10. not so bad, rite? oh yeahh.. otherwise this 7/10 movie (for me) has deep meaning, it teaches me how to treasure the time, fast forward-ing or skipping our problem is not the right way, the thing that we should do is FACE IT. by click-ing the fast forward button, maybe we can skip the the time we don't like. but it means you skip the moment, you skip all the moment that couldn't be repeated. what you gonna feel after you realized is just regret, regret cause you missed the moment that will never happened again in your life.

talking about the other topic.
i'm so pissed by myself. i'm pissed by the way i'm writting in english, i don't know how to write correctly in english, it seems i just translate it from bahasa, in fact i don't do that, i just type what appears in my mind. anybody knows how to practice writting in english as an essay maybe? my friend told me to write a love letter, hahahaha.. love letter? for who? i have no boyfriend or even put any interested on someone.

i wish my english is better than now.. i wish i can write in english fluently and write it with the flow...

Everyday is like writing a new chapter in your personal book; it's up to you what is written with it's pages, so make it a book written about success.

aghhh hari ini, kami warga 2A2, ada semacam pesta perpisahan. hari ini baka l jadi hari terakhir kita untuk liat ms. santi wearing her teacher uniform. T_________T we prepared lots of food men. ini sih rasa-na bukan banyak, tapi keterlaluan banyak-na.. can you imagine, 3 packs of ritz, 3 packs of orea.. itu 2 rasa, so. masing2 3 bungkus.. then we have tanggo 1 box, twister 2 cans, candy 2 boxes, a box of aqua, a box of chocolate, several rice crackers, 2 chitato the biggy size.. (super size).. and we had cake.. chocolate cake from harvest.. oh yah.. for drink, we had 2 bottles of coke, and 2 bottles of fanta... see?? suburrr boii.. ntar kira2 tgl 14, we are planning to have BBQ party at Ms. Santi's house.. kita cinta abis sama ms. santi. waktu ms. santi masuk gitu.. she suddenly cried.. we were asking for her speach, but she couldn't say anything.. sih sr. simon deh akhir-na ngerocos.. then bhe2 spoke a bit..a then everyone was crying.. rendy nangis lohh.. and i have recorded.. semua orang nangis ke record, excapt me, cause i was the one who record it.. so sorry lohhh.. hahaahahz.. dhuu skrg mata-na rada sakit. x_x gonna miss ms. santi so much. i still remember when i was grade 10, we had to submit a journal every week, and that's journal become a chit-chat book between me and her.. i still have it till now, and i'm gonna keep it.. she's the best teacher that i've ever had. beside b` chendra, they are the best. i still remember, in the beginning of year 11, she's so anthusiastic to do our mading, miss santi bela2in buat beli benang dkk untuk kita, bahan2 mading kita, udah gitu waktu 17 agustusan, kita masih lehai lehoi, sih miss yang udah siapin tanda yang Superman dkk itu.. huuu.. T____T so sadd...

btw, i had just studied about os-os-an.. which is mean tulang.. biasa, kita kan belajar dalam bahasa latin *siapin kantong muntah untuk para pembaca* cara mati yang mungkin gw akan alami adalah osteporosis, hahaha.. berhubung kata dokter, oli di bagian antara vertebrae lumbalis dengan vertebrae sakralis, sedikit terjadi kekeringan dimana oli na itu berfungsi sebagai pelumas supaya ga terjadi keropos.. well this stupid thought suddenly appear in my mind after the lesson had finished. hahaha... well, that's it maybe.. gtg now, cause my brotha wants to use it.. cerio ^o~

 rossy, tq yahh.. udah kasih tau, gw salah ngomong dalam bahasa inggris